It's also who I am

One part of my life over...

Debate is what is, believe it or not everyone does it sub-consciously. Everybody has belief and opinions, analysis for what we stand for, our own principles. It's a way of life.

I'm an addict and I'm lucky enough to be the chosen few to go through an intensive training for the last month and a half starting mid October till yesterday. I skipped school and even neglected a lot of important stuff like catching up with old friends and spending time with my family for a shot to be chosen for the top 5 to go to South Africa for the World Schools debate Championship. Alas I only made it to top 10 and got knocked out when they chose only five people.

After spending half of my holiday life on debate now I'm free. It feels weird when you just wonder what are you gonna do today when you've had a schedule for soo long. I'm still in the stages where I can't believe it's over. I felt as if I could have gone all the way, but you know what they say you're only as good as your last debate and boy was I not my best during that last run. Sometimes that's what life is, it's not performing at your best all the time, It's only when it matter. Choose your opportunities wisely and execute your absolute best.

Although I'm sad and disappointed but I'm also grateful because there is always a silver lining for every cloud. If i were chosen I wouldn't be able to spend time with my family and oldest and best friends in December And I would miss the first month of school next year. Especially next year when studies is particularly important. 

Missed an opportunity and it is hurtful and we're allowed to grieve but not forever, because it's over and we just gotta move on. You can't win it all. But what you can do is give your best and that is what matters. Only then you will look back and have no regrets.

Everyone has fear, to fail, to lose, to try. But we also have desires to win, to strive, to succeed. The real question that needs to be answered is do you want it bad enough to override those feelings of doubt. There's always risks, only you can decide.

Learn, Adapt, Execute...Izzat out

Keep going

Damn its hard keeping a blog,
its been a long time, and many, many things has passed.
disappointment mostly. SAD stuff when even the best inside us fails. Some may lose their identity, cos we often associate ourselves with things we tend to be good at. i.e debate, tennis or just socializing. Either way, a point in life will come to test these skills, and you might just make it or break it. When your passionate bout something and you work hard for it but fail...time and time again hope starts to fade. Confidence within transforms to doubt. Passion to worry. Happiness to hurt. Endurance withers.


When we do all we can but to no avail, only a tract record of past defeats, can't improve when you do your best? That happened to me, but you do need a slap to keep you in check every now and then. Even when the odds are stacked up againts you, a rooted underdog and when you feel like shit, after going through the blood, sweat, tears. You just gotta stand up and change, coz dude only you stand in your own way.barriers you set are your own. The power of perception, so lets put thing into perspective.

Fun fact, it took 1000 tries to make a simple thing as a light bulb. Imagine where we would be if the guy gave up at the 500th try? Most people call it 999 failures but it was only 999 ways how not to do it.

Steve jobs; famous for his ingenious invention revolutionizing technology. Sure enough his life had been sad, cursed even, adopted, dropped out of college, co-founded apple and got fired from his own company. Still he persisted...

 
There you go, the key is persistence. May we all never lose hope, Cause you can be a light bulb exactly like Steve Jobs. Izzat out.